It was a pretty hot night, I don't have an air-condition in my room so I let my room door open to allow some wind pass through the door to the window or vise versa. It was the only night that I've decided to hang my door open, usually no matter how hot the night is I prefer to close my door for privacy, but not that night.
I fell asleep as soon as I hit the hay.
In my dream.. I was asleep. My two hands were on my stomach. Suddenly, I felt someone’s presence at the door of my room. I didn’t see who exactly was that, all I know was she seemed walking towards my bed. It might be mum checking on me, I thought. But why is she checking on me in the middle of the night? Am I sick? A few seconds later, I felt her hand holding my left hand. I let her do it but curiously I squeezed her hand slowly enough that she won’t know I’m awake. I was shocked, the hand that holding me was not my mum’s hand. I am perfectly sure, it wasn’t her’s. The hand was not a hand of an old lady. My mum’s turning 70 in August. I am expecting a wrinkled hand, but it wasn’t. It was a hand of a young person, like my age. I have no idea if she is a HE or SHE. I was very confused till I realized I am dreaming. In my horror, I started to panic. I tried to move both my feet and hands to make myself awake. I tried to do it over and over again, but my body seemed so heavy that I can’t move it even a bit. It took me many tries before I finally awake. What surprised me most is that, I was positioning the same position in my dream. It feels really true, there was someone who visited me that night I just can’t pinpoint who it was. My heartbeat racing so fast, I didn’t move. I was scared but I was curious to know who it was really. It was a nightmare!!
After a minute I checked my clock it says May 29, 2012 4:55am. I’ve decided to get up, I went to check the kitchen, bathroom, living room and lastly I checked my mum if she is okay. Everything is in place and mum is sleeping. I went back to my room and find my rosary. I put it around my arm, like a bracelet and lied down on my bed again but changed my position to make sure I won’t dream again.
Finally, I was asleep again.
Unfortunately, in spite of changing my position I dreamt again.
I saw my high school classmate named "MG" In my dream we were walking side by side while talking about her ex boyfriend named "FC". As we talked I saw a boy walking ahead of us and he seemed heading to the same place where we going. He turned his head to us and there I know it was FC. I said Hi to him while waving my hand but he just smiled and continued his walk. As I remember he is not walking properly, there's something wrong with his right foot and his right hand. I feel pity on him. I walked faster to reach him, as soon as he saw me he said "you are so big now Mick" he was smiling while he said that but all I respond was a SMILE. I know in myself that I've had a lot of question to him like "how are you" but it didn't came out from my mouth.
We continued our walk, there's no one in there but two of us. We're in the woods, I walked first while he was following me. What happened was, I bumped in a tree. The road where I'm going to is a like a dead end. There's a tree right in the middle of the road and there's a lot of roots that I couldn't go through.
I heard FC calling me, I turned my head to find him and there he was walking on the other side. "Come here, here's the right road" so I walked back and followed him. I was happy, we were both happy.
I woke up again. And there I know who it was on my first dream. It was FC, he is the one who entered in my room and hold my hand. I felt terrified, mix emotion actually. Scared, happy, sad, etc. I'm scared because I am dreaming someone who is dead, I'm happy because so many times I want to dream about this guy and I did, sad because I missed him so much and knowing I won't see him ever again. Out of hundreds of thousands of dreams that I have had, this one seems so real, so true.
I felt loved by him because he comes to my dream, he visits me and hold my hands, proof that yes he cares for me. I cried, I want to shout so freaking bad "I want you back" but I was controlling myself. I then started to think all the memories we had, all the good things he did for me, his happy face. How I wish I could bring back the past and pause there just to have him and be with him. I want him to know how special he is, but all this is not gonna happen and it won't ever no matter what I do.
What makes this dream special is because FC once admit to MG about his feeling for me. He said that to her before they became together, but they broke up after almost a year of their relationship. FC died last July 28,2011 5am at age of 26, he is one of those Marine who got killed by the Abussayaf in Mindanao.
I was hoping to meet him in August, the month after he died, coz he is supposed to go back home but he didn't reached August. All I met was his dead body.
It was terrifying!
That's why I'm happy and thankful for this dream. Somehow, he made me feel loved by him, perhaps because he is just right there, watching over me and yes he does, he does feel my love for him.
I will forever treasure you and I will forever remember those memories we've had together. I miss you so much and I love you Forever!
I fell asleep as soon as I hit the hay.
In my dream.. I was asleep. My two hands were on my stomach. Suddenly, I felt someone’s presence at the door of my room. I didn’t see who exactly was that, all I know was she seemed walking towards my bed. It might be mum checking on me, I thought. But why is she checking on me in the middle of the night? Am I sick? A few seconds later, I felt her hand holding my left hand. I let her do it but curiously I squeezed her hand slowly enough that she won’t know I’m awake. I was shocked, the hand that holding me was not my mum’s hand. I am perfectly sure, it wasn’t her’s. The hand was not a hand of an old lady. My mum’s turning 70 in August. I am expecting a wrinkled hand, but it wasn’t. It was a hand of a young person, like my age. I have no idea if she is a HE or SHE. I was very confused till I realized I am dreaming. In my horror, I started to panic. I tried to move both my feet and hands to make myself awake. I tried to do it over and over again, but my body seemed so heavy that I can’t move it even a bit. It took me many tries before I finally awake. What surprised me most is that, I was positioning the same position in my dream. It feels really true, there was someone who visited me that night I just can’t pinpoint who it was. My heartbeat racing so fast, I didn’t move. I was scared but I was curious to know who it was really. It was a nightmare!!
After a minute I checked my clock it says May 29, 2012 4:55am. I’ve decided to get up, I went to check the kitchen, bathroom, living room and lastly I checked my mum if she is okay. Everything is in place and mum is sleeping. I went back to my room and find my rosary. I put it around my arm, like a bracelet and lied down on my bed again but changed my position to make sure I won’t dream again.
Finally, I was asleep again.
Unfortunately, in spite of changing my position I dreamt again.
I saw my high school classmate named "MG" In my dream we were walking side by side while talking about her ex boyfriend named "FC". As we talked I saw a boy walking ahead of us and he seemed heading to the same place where we going. He turned his head to us and there I know it was FC. I said Hi to him while waving my hand but he just smiled and continued his walk. As I remember he is not walking properly, there's something wrong with his right foot and his right hand. I feel pity on him. I walked faster to reach him, as soon as he saw me he said "you are so big now Mick" he was smiling while he said that but all I respond was a SMILE. I know in myself that I've had a lot of question to him like "how are you" but it didn't came out from my mouth.
We continued our walk, there's no one in there but two of us. We're in the woods, I walked first while he was following me. What happened was, I bumped in a tree. The road where I'm going to is a like a dead end. There's a tree right in the middle of the road and there's a lot of roots that I couldn't go through.
I heard FC calling me, I turned my head to find him and there he was walking on the other side. "Come here, here's the right road" so I walked back and followed him. I was happy, we were both happy.
I woke up again. And there I know who it was on my first dream. It was FC, he is the one who entered in my room and hold my hand. I felt terrified, mix emotion actually. Scared, happy, sad, etc. I'm scared because I am dreaming someone who is dead, I'm happy because so many times I want to dream about this guy and I did, sad because I missed him so much and knowing I won't see him ever again. Out of hundreds of thousands of dreams that I have had, this one seems so real, so true.
I felt loved by him because he comes to my dream, he visits me and hold my hands, proof that yes he cares for me. I cried, I want to shout so freaking bad "I want you back" but I was controlling myself. I then started to think all the memories we had, all the good things he did for me, his happy face. How I wish I could bring back the past and pause there just to have him and be with him. I want him to know how special he is, but all this is not gonna happen and it won't ever no matter what I do.
What makes this dream special is because FC once admit to MG about his feeling for me. He said that to her before they became together, but they broke up after almost a year of their relationship. FC died last July 28,2011 5am at age of 26, he is one of those Marine who got killed by the Abussayaf in Mindanao.
I was hoping to meet him in August, the month after he died, coz he is supposed to go back home but he didn't reached August. All I met was his dead body.
It was terrifying!
That's why I'm happy and thankful for this dream. Somehow, he made me feel loved by him, perhaps because he is just right there, watching over me and yes he does, he does feel my love for him.
I will forever treasure you and I will forever remember those memories we've had together. I miss you so much and I love you Forever!
