Finally, I'm going away for good! Thank God!

            Finally my question has been answered. I’m going to Australia next year to start my life. I’m going to take my course which is hospitality management in Australia on July 2016.

            All my life I’ve been waiting for this to happen. It takes a decade before I know I’m really going there. Lots of disappointment and frustrations, I’m on the edge of my patience and almost giving up, I can’t avoid it. But here I am, I think this is it! My life will change the moment I step up on the plane.

            It’s not going to be easy, leaving everyone that I love and living in the place which is totally strange for me. I have faith in God that’s the only thing I have, and either I like it or not I have to believe in myself. I have to live and face my life alone.

            I know God is there for me as I do this. Lord, please help me overcome all the challenges that come in my life. Help me succeed so I could help my sisters and parents.

            Lord, please help me survived mentally and whatever happen to me in Australia please give me strength not to give up.

            I hope the good Lord help me get through all these. Amen.

           

             

Dear God,

Here we go again facing the same exact thing as before. It's very disappointing that after all we've been through we still in the same situation again. I thought everyone has already learned from the past mistakes. I've never expect my other sister would do exactly the same mistake. Such a big failure *shakes head* but things stroke already and it left us no choices but to accept her decision. It may be hard for us but I know every thing will be in place in the right time. For now, let us put our trust to God coz as long as He is there, there's nothing to worry about.

I blame my sister for doing such a thing, especially the yelling over our older sister and blaming her over and over again in spite of all her sacrifices and help. I know how bad it is for her, and I feel so helpless that I can't help her in return of all her goodness. She is that good and helpful and very family minded, I can't even count how many persons she's been helping. She doesn't deserve this, and blaming her is such a terrible thing ever.

I adore my sister Emily so much. And I ask you Lord, begging you to please give her strength and wisdom. Just be with her Lord, she needed you so much. We can't be with her all this time, and you are the last Man I could ask for help. Lord you know that, you see what kind of person she is, so please don't ever leave her. Please let her feel that she is loved.

Please Lord protect my sister, no matter what will happen hope we're still together. Still family. Please forgive us Lord to all our sins. I know you have reasons, I hope we'll see it soon. Just don't abandon us Lord, please.

Negative attitude

I used to not believe in what they so called black sheep of the family, but due to what's happening with my family sometimes I really want to believe that in every family....well, not all family I mean has this black sheep.

I know, this is unacceptable when one of your siblings heard you saying "you are the black sheep of our family" coz no matter how bad they are or how extremely wrong they did they are still part of my family and anyhow they've done something good. It's not worth to tell them that phrase, although sometimes they go beyond the limit.

One of my sibling is you know something like this, I tried not to think her this way but sometimes when you are angry and overloaded by those crap you've heard you can't think any excuses.

My sister is like understandable, like you don't know what makes her happy and sad, thankful and angry. She's like uneasy to talk and to be with. Sometimes, I ask myself why is she like this? why do people having this kind of attitude exist in this world?

I understand what she feel, I've been in this kind of situation before and I know how tough to fight against your will and how to find a way to control yourself. I think our blood line plays a big reason why we react this way. That's unavoidable and tough to handle. But I strongly believe we can pass this attitude if we know how to control ourselves.

7days to go before X-mas

Christmas is just around the corner. I wake up early in the morning since wednesday December 16 to attend the dawn mass or we call it “Misa de Gallo” for nine days, that is our christmas costum here in the Philippines. And on the 24th midnight of December I will attend the midnight mass to welcome the birth of the saviour, that is our annual tradition.

That is why my dear friends I’m pretty tired these days, I don’t have so much time to join social networking, my schedule is too hectic but I love this, being busy is much better:)

I hope you guys are having an upbeat week. Cheers mate!!!

X-mas holiday

I spent my Christmas and new years eve at my father’s hometown in La Carlota City and it was awesome because I saw all my relatives, and all our neighbours are pretty nice to us. It was so great to go back in a place where you grew up to and meet those people where your youthful life yoked to and meet your long lost friends, you can feel the real spirit of happiness. I wish I could go back there again one day and do things we did just like last Christmas, it was the awesomest holiday I had.

Homework for effortless english

Aj Hoge the director and founder of effortless english gave an assignment to write a short post for anybody to thank them. So I’d like to say thank you to my sister estee for helping me imrpove my english, we chat two to three times a week. She inspired me and gave me advice about life and imigration stuff, even though she’s too busy sometimes she didn’t forgot to talk to me. I’m so so thankful and greatful to have a sister like her, I hope she won’t change and I hope she’ll always be in good health. She makes me strong when I am weak, she lift my spirit up in times of I’m almost give up and she encourage and motivate me to reach my goals in life. She’s so good and very kind. I really wish I won’t disappoint them by my IELTS result. I really want to make them happy in return, that’s the least thing I could ever give them, I hope I can make it. I know my English isn’t good, but I won’t give up I know I can do this. I have to study more and keep a positive thought in my mind so I can make it. I love you my sister and thank you for everything.

Family is the main core of my life

I can’t think the right topic to share:) but anyway, I’d like to let people know how much I love my parents and my whole family and how important they are. I treasure them so much and I can’t imagine my life without them. They are the core of my life and without them I might as well die. I know I’m not a good daughter to them, I disobeyed their rules and sometimes I lied to them but they always forgave me and understand me. They are my strength at the same time my weakness. Strength in the sense that, they sheltered me when I got cold, they bring me food on the table and they are always there beside me when I needed them, they make me strong and guiding me to the right direction and inspired me by their words. They are my weakness in the sense that, they are the most important thing in the world I can’t afford to lose. I am ready to give everything what I have and I can do, just to make them safe.