It's been awhile since I'm joining English lessons online. And it's been so long that I didn't bother to write something in my blog. It's depressing to realise that I wasted so much of my time instead of studying English. I could feel the negative effect of it, as I remember I can write faster before. I mean my mind is working quickly that I don't need to stop for a while to think what to write next. Before I wrote continuously and quickly but now I could feel the slow-typing. My mind is not that active, I don't know but that's how I feel about it.
I used to write so many blogs before and that helps me a lot to excercise my mind. To think quickly and write continuously. I mean my mind worked pretty well before, maybe I just need to do this stuff again. Writing blogs all the time to excercise my mind and waking up my dead genes :) I mean I need to work this out again. Aging can make your mind work slowly, I'm near to reach 30s and I could feel that my mind is not that so active like before. So I really need to make it work before anything goes hard to bring back.
I used to learn new slangs before but now I kind of lose my apetite on that site. My learning was declined and so does my English vocabulary. I need to keep this up, keep studying hard again.
12/18/10
Misa de gallo
It's December and Misa de gallo plays big part as we celebrate Christmas. It's a 9 mornings' mas before christmas eve or the born of Jesus Christ. Some people say, you need to complete the 9 mornings so that your wish will come true. I used to believe in this saying before and been attending misa de gallo for many times but I didn't get a chance to complete the 9 mornings. Not until last year, that was my first to make it perfect and it was a nice experienced. Waking up early in the morning for 9 consecutive days is kind of tired but it's really a nice feeling when you are sucrificing for God. To show him that he is remembered.
The true spirit of Christmas is not by receiving gifts but to visit him in the church and praise him for what his done to us. Celebrating his birthday is the main reason why we have this so called christmas. It's his day, the day when he came out from the womb of Virgin Mary and later on saved us from the sins. We musn't forget that, we owe him. He saved us because he loves us more than his own life.
Some people ask me, are you attending misa de gallo??? and I was like yes. They ask me, what is your wish??? and I answer them, I have so many wish but I don't really need to wish at all. I mean, I don't want to go to church for 9 consecutive mornings because I have a wish to ask. That is so unfair, you only go to church because of your wish??? because you want God to return your sacrifice by answering your wish?? I mean come'on! This life is too much to ask for more. I mean saving our lives and giving us an opportunity to live, use and enjoy his other creations is too much.
Why don't we go to church, listen to his words and be inspired instead of going there just for the sake of your wish??!
Today is December 18th and I was attending 3 mornings' mas. I still have 6 mornings till the day when Jesus Christ was born. May our Christmas be filled with love and happiness. Merry Christmas to everyone.
The true spirit of Christmas is not by receiving gifts but to visit him in the church and praise him for what his done to us. Celebrating his birthday is the main reason why we have this so called christmas. It's his day, the day when he came out from the womb of Virgin Mary and later on saved us from the sins. We musn't forget that, we owe him. He saved us because he loves us more than his own life.
Some people ask me, are you attending misa de gallo??? and I was like yes. They ask me, what is your wish??? and I answer them, I have so many wish but I don't really need to wish at all. I mean, I don't want to go to church for 9 consecutive mornings because I have a wish to ask. That is so unfair, you only go to church because of your wish??? because you want God to return your sacrifice by answering your wish?? I mean come'on! This life is too much to ask for more. I mean saving our lives and giving us an opportunity to live, use and enjoy his other creations is too much.
Why don't we go to church, listen to his words and be inspired instead of going there just for the sake of your wish??!
Today is December 18th and I was attending 3 mornings' mas. I still have 6 mornings till the day when Jesus Christ was born. May our Christmas be filled with love and happiness. Merry Christmas to everyone.
I am so dependent - I hate it
It's been a while since I last visited my blog. I was kinda busy since it's December, lots of stuff to do and family visits. I spend most of my time visiting my families from other places, I'm the only one who can drive so I have no choice to be left at home. My family really needs my service so why not??
I know my life is just easy for anybody else, but for me it's kind of tough. I can't find a job because I need to stay at home all the time.I mean people can't live without me, in case of emergency no one could be there to drive for them. To take money from the bank or any other responsibilities that needs my present.
I used to complain about this, but I know I have no reason to do so. My family needs my help, how could I reject it?! I'm so glad my sisters understand my situation. But until when I could keep myself believe that everything is okay? I mean, I need myself to be improved too. I'm too old to be dependent with my sisters help.
Being free is good, but I feel so limited to reach my goals. I really needed to get out of this situation and start reaching my goal all by myself. Fight against the fears and learn how to accept things.
I know my life is just easy for anybody else, but for me it's kind of tough. I can't find a job because I need to stay at home all the time.I mean people can't live without me, in case of emergency no one could be there to drive for them. To take money from the bank or any other responsibilities that needs my present.
I used to complain about this, but I know I have no reason to do so. My family needs my help, how could I reject it?! I'm so glad my sisters understand my situation. But until when I could keep myself believe that everything is okay? I mean, I need myself to be improved too. I'm too old to be dependent with my sisters help.
Being free is good, but I feel so limited to reach my goals. I really needed to get out of this situation and start reaching my goal all by myself. Fight against the fears and learn how to accept things.
