I want to save my life

I really wanna take it back but I can't. What am I gonna do now???? I want to be positive, I still have time I know that. Better late than never right? I hope next year I can go to Australia. Please pray for me. Help me save my Life.

I really hope everything is gonna be fine soon. I don't have to be felt so lost, I will put my trust to God.

I want to go to Australia now

Sorry about my previous post. I'm really sad and feel so miserable about the status of my life. I regret so much for letting this happened. I'm such a coward and I always put the fear on the top of everything. That's the big reason why I didn't succeed. I wanna punch myself so fucking hard, I want to awake myself from this shit dreams. I want to change, I want to do something but I just didn't know how and where to start.

My sister keeps on telling me that maybe next couple of months we will start processing your paper so I can go to Australia. But God until now I'm still here, still can't find a work because of that. I supposed to go to Australia last year, they told me to prepare for the IELTS. Instead of finding a job, I didn't coz I prepared for IELTS but after that they told me I'm not going with my sister. She will go alone without me :( She is older than me so they will take her first.

I've waited for so long, I didn't find a job knowing they will start processing my visa. Now they are telling me, early next year. Hope this one will be sure, I really wanna go there, I want to start living. As time goes by I'm getting old, it's time to start my career and work so hard. I want to fill up those missing years I've been free out of work.

To my sister please, do anything to take me here :( I'll pay you later as long as I'm done with my study and have work. Please, I'm so old now I want to work and reach my dreams. I want to start it right now, I'm already late. PLEASE!

we are born to be this way

Life is wonderful if you know how to handle it. Problems, disappointments and frustrations are part of being a human. We can't avoid them, each and everyone of us has each own challenge in life. All we have to do is to be strong and face all of them positively and with love. If you think your problem is very tough, always remember that there are bunch of people out there who are facing more than what you have.

We are born to be a fighter of what we so called life. There is no reason to give up, as long as we have someone around who loved us and will love us. I know saying all these things are easy but doing it aren't.

Thinking positive things help us to be strong and be inspired. We need these, we need people who will lift us up when we are down or when we feel sad and weak. This is just a word but it can make you incredibly different the way you respond to your problem. Live life by accepting what you are and what you have.

5 Ways to improve your English

English plays big role in our lives. We need to have a competitive English for us to find a good job and adequate salary for ourselves and for our family. In order to master your grammar, you need to learn and study hard. So what are the different ways to improve your English?? read my tips below.

First

Read English books, if there's an audio book it's better. Read comics, magazines, newspaper, anything that you could read as long as it is written in English. For instance, reading billboards, sign boards, etc. If you have a favorite book it is advisable to read it 5-10 times, it can help you familiarize each word and save it deeply to your mind.

Second

Watch english movies, tv series, news, interviews, any videos as long as it is english. You can find english videos at youtube, try to listen to the conversation. Understand what they are saying and follow their pronunciation.

Note: in watching movies, try to watch it 3-5 times without subtitles and then watch it again with subtitles. Check your listening if what you've heard is correct.

Third

Listen to English news on radio. Listening to english music can help too, try to understand the lyrics and the usage of the words. Listen to music or any audio when you are on your way to school or work. For example if you are on the bus, don't waste your time sitting why don't you turn on your cellphone or ipod and listen to it.

Fourth

Blogging can help a lot. Try to create a blogsite and blog your life or anything you want to say. Remember using those words you've learned everyday can help you remember the word, its meaning at the same time its usage. As months, weeks or even days pass by we tend to forget some words we learned. Through blogging, it can help you minimize the number of words lose. In addition, you can also write poems, short stories, fan fiction or writing song lyrics.

Fifth

Talk to anyone from other countries. When you are talking to foreigners you are force to speak english otherwise they can't understand you. Having an online friends is another way of learning english. There are millions of english site out there, why don't you try to sign up and start chatting to other people who are also learning english?

Make Speaking, reading, listening and writing english as your daily habit! I hope my tips help you improve your english! Good luck with your study. We can do it!!!

My english is improve, yay!

I could feel it, my english is bit improve now. When I re-read my old post I noticed some of my grammar are wrong, especially the tenses. I did not edit it though, to make it right. I think it's better not to correct it so I could learn from my mistakes. Blogging helps a lot to improve my grammar, hope as I continue doing this my grammar will be great soon.

On my next blog I will write something about what I've done to make my english bit better. I know, my vocabulary's still limited but I'm on my way of improving it. I will just share to you some tips that can help us learning. So read my next post.

My twilight stuff

LOL this is what my Room wall looks like, I also have an eclipse poster across this but I'm lazy to find that pic :D Anyways, I love looking at it whenever I'm bored, it's mind blowing lol. I bought nothing out of that, my sister bought it all and send it to me. She really knows how obsessed I am with Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart and the twilight saga series. We don't have any twilight stuff here in my place, imagine how fucking boring my place is. Thanks to my sister for sending those stuffs.



In this picture you can see my twilight books and magazines. I've got many twilight stuff here, but I didn't put it here. It's time wasted to arrange, I paste it somewhere and hard to take it and put it back again so I only put those easy to put back like these. I also have a twilight t-shirt but I couldn't find it. My sister bought all of these. She used to buy magazines and every time she saw Robsten photos she rip them off and send it to me lol. Weird and funny!!!!

English people are romantic too

Oh ROb you are so romantic. I really find English/American people as wild and not romantic before. But then when I started watching their movies, I kind of loving it and gradually I know their lifestyles. When I know about Robsten, I became their hugest fan and joined the whole world to witness their on/off screen romance. Now, I know how romantic they are, though honestly it surprised me for the first time.

Okay, let's proceed to Robsten love story. The story that I find very romantic lol. Here we go, that time Kristen is filming her new movie "On the Road" in Montreal. What surprised us is the picture of Kristen with Rob's bestfriend TomStu, which actually caught together several times. People started to react and think that Kristen is dating Rob's best friend. But then later, there were articles confirming that TomStu is also a cast on the movie "On the road" that news calms people down LOL.

In the next day, omg! paparazzi caught Rob wearing "get off my dick" t-shirt in Montreal lol that shirt is in fairness so hot "ROTFL*

The day after that Rob was again caught leaning on Kristen's forehead, like you can guess what's gonna happen next lol, it looked like he's about to kiss Kristen but unluckily there's no picture after the "forehead to forehead" it looks so sweet though, they both smiling like true happiness, you can see it in their eyes and face.

Then the big day comes when the "smooching" pictures comes out! facebook and twitter were like going to explode when everyone saw it. RObsten is so on!!!

So the sweetest thing there is when Rob visit Kristen on the set of her new movie as soon as he finished his "Water for elephant" movie alongside Reese Witherspoon. He went to Montreal and spent a week there with his girlfriend and then they both flight back to LA together. That's so sweet, wasn't it???! Love it, love them!

RObsten is so "ON"

Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart are officially together!!! This is great news yet. The duo who are known as Edward Cullen and Isabella Swan in the phenomenon vampire romance Twilight saga by Stephenie Meyer. The romance started on screen, it blossom and blossom till finally they fell in love in real life. Thanks to millions of fans from all over the world for the undying support and prayer for these two. So now Robsten fans our prayer has been answered! yay!!

Fans from every part of the world including me:) are begging and praying that Robsten will be together forever. The "together" has been answered already, hope the "forever" will be heard too *fingers crossed* I really like them, this is my first time to be obsessed like this, like crazy in love with Robsten. Sounds weird but I'm not ashamed to tell the world about my obsession. They inspired me and changed my life to a better one maybe more exciting one, so how could I be shy right?

Actually, there wasn't really a verbal confirmation from Kristen and Rob that they are dating. The confirmation I'm talking about here is the picture taken by the paparazzi. Robsten caught off guard smooching at the house party, so isn't that enough to say that they are dating? These two are very private, they don't need to shout to tell the world "yes we are dating". That picture is the answer to everybody's question.

Those people who still think that Robsten are just friends are stupid, I mean com'on open your eyes and just accept the fact that these two are in love with each other. If you are one of those nonstens then that's none of my/our freakin' business.

I am enjoying my life now, and in love with Robsten. I really hope they will stay together forever coz they are meant for each other, they are perfect for each other. I just can't imagine Rob with someone else and so does Kristen. They created for each other!!!

I missed blogging

It's been ages since I last posted a blog, I'm just too lazy and was hooked up at other sites especially twitter and facebook. Those sites are just simply awesome, I get a kick out of staying there all the time. There's nothing special there though, it's just my online friends who keeps me stay there. Once I entered at that two sites I find hard to get out. Especially when my best buds are online.

Tweeting and facebooking are the awesomeness job ever LOL. I just wish there's a job like that, haha. Anyways, I really have nothing to say in this post. This is just a warm up so i could I start blogging the coolest thing which I'm still thinking what should that be LOL.

OMG I missed the whole month of August, I just noticed it when I saw my blog archive. It's a big evidence that I was here for so long grrrrr! I need to wrote more blogs so I could fill up those absences.

Anyway, Pollene..bitch where are you? are you still interested to continue your blogspot?? well, I think not. That's okay though. You don't need to have one, your english is already good and besides you have foreign friends who you can talk with. Just continue talking to them bitch and you will notice how excellent your english are one day.

I learned from life

Sometimes we realize we're in the middle of nowhere. We don't know who we are, what we like, who we want to be with and where we should go. We want to fix our life but we don't know where to start, we freak out, lose our way, we give up and end up to a miserable life.

Being unknown to yourself is I think natural to us - people. Don't give up, don't think negative, be optimistic instead. If you think you are too late to do things, why don't you start it now "it's better late than never" remember??!

In this world, not all of us are lucky to receive glory in early age, although I confess there are lots of people who are lucky enough to have them early. So what?! instead of wasting your time thinking negative things why don't you start doing stuff that would lead you to your glory?

Let them be happy for what they received, just be happy for them. Have a good heart and work hard then you will notice how the glory comes into your hand.

Negative attitude

I used to not believe in what they so called black sheep of the family, but due to what's happening with my family sometimes I really want to believe that in every family....well, not all family I mean has this black sheep.

I know, this is unacceptable when one of your siblings heard you saying "you are the black sheep of our family" coz no matter how bad they are or how extremely wrong they did they are still part of my family and anyhow they've done something good. It's not worth to tell them that phrase, although sometimes they go beyond the limit.

One of my sibling is you know something like this, I tried not to think her this way but sometimes when you are angry and overloaded by those crap you've heard you can't think any excuses.

My sister is like understandable, like you don't know what makes her happy and sad, thankful and angry. She's like uneasy to talk and to be with. Sometimes, I ask myself why is she like this? why do people having this kind of attitude exist in this world?

I understand what she feel, I've been in this kind of situation before and I know how tough to fight against your will and how to find a way to control yourself. I think our blood line plays a big reason why we react this way. That's unavoidable and tough to handle. But I strongly believe we can pass this attitude if we know how to control ourselves.

My quotes

Not all the time....explaining or reasoning is the solution to a problem, sometimes being silent can give you both peace in mind. Reasoning doesn't mean you win and being silent doesn't mean you loss either.

Every problem that comes into our lives are meant to be happened for us to learn and become stronger.