I really believe that happiness is accompanied by sadness. But the good thing is there is no sadness without happiness.
As much as I hate the fact that happiness is always accompanied by sadness, I truly believe in it. In my life or in my family for instance, when there is happiness - sadness will follow. What the heck??? But life goes this way and we have nothing to do with it, life is not easy as everyone say...because it truly is... only the strong survive! but hey! no one has reached the finish line alive, put that in mind! We all die, so live life to the fullest no matter how hard it is. Don;t ever lost your faith and even dare to think of giving up. Why don;t we just enjoy life while we're here, right??? I know it's easy to say this, but sometimes frustration, disappointment, dissatifaction, poverty, loneliness to mention the few -can make us weak and helpless. These are the things that pull us down and lead us to think negative ones. I know everyone of us suffer in this kind of life, but just be strong and always have faith in God. He is the only one who could undstand us, the one who will make us feel being loved. Once a thing occur or happen to us, God is always involve coz everything that comes to us - God has always a reason to it! All we have to do is to face it confidently and show others we can do it!!!!
OMG! I'm so happy that I am so positive right now! yay!!! I used to write rant blog before, now it's so inspiring but I can't assure you on not to write negative things in the future hahaha. Remember in every positive, comes the negative. And for now I would like to say...I don't care...negative things are just fuck! right peeps???! bwahahaha! til then...
3/7/11
First blog after 2 months
January..February...March..OMG! it's already March!!! Time went so fast that I didn't noticed I missed two months without writing. It means I have to keep up and fill those missing days that I had missed. Anyway, here I am.. starting my task before it's getting too late to do it. For now I could say, I'm not that late coz I have so many things in my mind to write.
Now I learned that writing isn't just writing anything you want. In my case, I used to think that writing is just my way of learning and of improving my English. But now it seems like there is more about writing.
Writing can help you change things suround you. For instance, through writing I could feel peaceful. I mean, if you have something inside you that you want to spit out before it intoxicate your soul. Something that it need to be said but there is nobody to be told or nobody could understand no matter how you explain it. In short, Writing is the key to let you out those negative things inside you and make you empty, peaceful and better.
Have you ever felt that sometimes in our lives there are things that no one could understand except yourself??? and you want to share it but explanation or words is not enough for others to undestand the whole thing??? I'm sure you felt that coz I did.
In our lives there are so many small things that bother us. It's just small things but if those small things combine it will become big, right? those small things is not really important to be told to anyone closed to you or even to your family. What I'm saying here is, everyone of us is unique... nobody knew us better than ourselves.
It's up for us on how to handle each circumstances that happens into ourlives. In my case, Writing is my way...I think my best way to let negative things go and positive things to share. I think it is healthy to do it, coz after letting it go you will feel better. That's why I started using this therapy for how many months now and I could say it helps a lot. If you hate someone to death, like you want to kill her for saying something against you - you don't really have to attack her/him back. That's probably will make things even worse. Why don't you attack her/him through writing?? but hey! make sure nobody could read it, or at least no one could read it that knows you both. Spitting it out makes you feel better and I do think it's a good way than confronting her/him straight to their faces.
I'm telling you this because I once in this situation before. I mean confronting someone personally and it only ends up worser, that's why I'm giving you a hint. Don't want you guys to experince what I have experinced before. The most important now is I learned from them and I know now how to handle things like that.
what a long blog after 2 months:) I should have leave some of it for the next one. Have a good night!
Now I learned that writing isn't just writing anything you want. In my case, I used to think that writing is just my way of learning and of improving my English. But now it seems like there is more about writing.
Writing can help you change things suround you. For instance, through writing I could feel peaceful. I mean, if you have something inside you that you want to spit out before it intoxicate your soul. Something that it need to be said but there is nobody to be told or nobody could understand no matter how you explain it. In short, Writing is the key to let you out those negative things inside you and make you empty, peaceful and better.
Have you ever felt that sometimes in our lives there are things that no one could understand except yourself??? and you want to share it but explanation or words is not enough for others to undestand the whole thing??? I'm sure you felt that coz I did.
In our lives there are so many small things that bother us. It's just small things but if those small things combine it will become big, right? those small things is not really important to be told to anyone closed to you or even to your family. What I'm saying here is, everyone of us is unique... nobody knew us better than ourselves.
It's up for us on how to handle each circumstances that happens into ourlives. In my case, Writing is my way...I think my best way to let negative things go and positive things to share. I think it is healthy to do it, coz after letting it go you will feel better. That's why I started using this therapy for how many months now and I could say it helps a lot. If you hate someone to death, like you want to kill her for saying something against you - you don't really have to attack her/him back. That's probably will make things even worse. Why don't you attack her/him through writing?? but hey! make sure nobody could read it, or at least no one could read it that knows you both. Spitting it out makes you feel better and I do think it's a good way than confronting her/him straight to their faces.
I'm telling you this because I once in this situation before. I mean confronting someone personally and it only ends up worser, that's why I'm giving you a hint. Don't want you guys to experince what I have experinced before. The most important now is I learned from them and I know now how to handle things like that.
what a long blog after 2 months:) I should have leave some of it for the next one. Have a good night!
12/18/10
It's English comment time :)
It's been awhile since I'm joining English lessons online. And it's been so long that I didn't bother to write something in my blog. It's depressing to realise that I wasted so much of my time instead of studying English. I could feel the negative effect of it, as I remember I can write faster before. I mean my mind is working quickly that I don't need to stop for a while to think what to write next. Before I wrote continuously and quickly but now I could feel the slow-typing. My mind is not that active, I don't know but that's how I feel about it.
I used to write so many blogs before and that helps me a lot to excercise my mind. To think quickly and write continuously. I mean my mind worked pretty well before, maybe I just need to do this stuff again. Writing blogs all the time to excercise my mind and waking up my dead genes :) I mean I need to work this out again. Aging can make your mind work slowly, I'm near to reach 30s and I could feel that my mind is not that so active like before. So I really need to make it work before anything goes hard to bring back.
I used to learn new slangs before but now I kind of lose my apetite on that site. My learning was declined and so does my English vocabulary. I need to keep this up, keep studying hard again.
I used to write so many blogs before and that helps me a lot to excercise my mind. To think quickly and write continuously. I mean my mind worked pretty well before, maybe I just need to do this stuff again. Writing blogs all the time to excercise my mind and waking up my dead genes :) I mean I need to work this out again. Aging can make your mind work slowly, I'm near to reach 30s and I could feel that my mind is not that so active like before. So I really need to make it work before anything goes hard to bring back.
I used to learn new slangs before but now I kind of lose my apetite on that site. My learning was declined and so does my English vocabulary. I need to keep this up, keep studying hard again.
Misa de gallo
It's December and Misa de gallo plays big part as we celebrate Christmas. It's a 9 mornings' mas before christmas eve or the born of Jesus Christ. Some people say, you need to complete the 9 mornings so that your wish will come true. I used to believe in this saying before and been attending misa de gallo for many times but I didn't get a chance to complete the 9 mornings. Not until last year, that was my first to make it perfect and it was a nice experienced. Waking up early in the morning for 9 consecutive days is kind of tired but it's really a nice feeling when you are sucrificing for God. To show him that he is remembered.
The true spirit of Christmas is not by receiving gifts but to visit him in the church and praise him for what his done to us. Celebrating his birthday is the main reason why we have this so called christmas. It's his day, the day when he came out from the womb of Virgin Mary and later on saved us from the sins. We musn't forget that, we owe him. He saved us because he loves us more than his own life.
Some people ask me, are you attending misa de gallo??? and I was like yes. They ask me, what is your wish??? and I answer them, I have so many wish but I don't really need to wish at all. I mean, I don't want to go to church for 9 consecutive mornings because I have a wish to ask. That is so unfair, you only go to church because of your wish??? because you want God to return your sacrifice by answering your wish?? I mean come'on! This life is too much to ask for more. I mean saving our lives and giving us an opportunity to live, use and enjoy his other creations is too much.
Why don't we go to church, listen to his words and be inspired instead of going there just for the sake of your wish??!
Today is December 18th and I was attending 3 mornings' mas. I still have 6 mornings till the day when Jesus Christ was born. May our Christmas be filled with love and happiness. Merry Christmas to everyone.
The true spirit of Christmas is not by receiving gifts but to visit him in the church and praise him for what his done to us. Celebrating his birthday is the main reason why we have this so called christmas. It's his day, the day when he came out from the womb of Virgin Mary and later on saved us from the sins. We musn't forget that, we owe him. He saved us because he loves us more than his own life.
Some people ask me, are you attending misa de gallo??? and I was like yes. They ask me, what is your wish??? and I answer them, I have so many wish but I don't really need to wish at all. I mean, I don't want to go to church for 9 consecutive mornings because I have a wish to ask. That is so unfair, you only go to church because of your wish??? because you want God to return your sacrifice by answering your wish?? I mean come'on! This life is too much to ask for more. I mean saving our lives and giving us an opportunity to live, use and enjoy his other creations is too much.
Why don't we go to church, listen to his words and be inspired instead of going there just for the sake of your wish??!
Today is December 18th and I was attending 3 mornings' mas. I still have 6 mornings till the day when Jesus Christ was born. May our Christmas be filled with love and happiness. Merry Christmas to everyone.
I am so dependent - I hate it
It's been a while since I last visited my blog. I was kinda busy since it's December, lots of stuff to do and family visits. I spend most of my time visiting my families from other places, I'm the only one who can drive so I have no choice to be left at home. My family really needs my service so why not??
I know my life is just easy for anybody else, but for me it's kind of tough. I can't find a job because I need to stay at home all the time.I mean people can't live without me, in case of emergency no one could be there to drive for them. To take money from the bank or any other responsibilities that needs my present.
I used to complain about this, but I know I have no reason to do so. My family needs my help, how could I reject it?! I'm so glad my sisters understand my situation. But until when I could keep myself believe that everything is okay? I mean, I need myself to be improved too. I'm too old to be dependent with my sisters help.
Being free is good, but I feel so limited to reach my goals. I really needed to get out of this situation and start reaching my goal all by myself. Fight against the fears and learn how to accept things.
I know my life is just easy for anybody else, but for me it's kind of tough. I can't find a job because I need to stay at home all the time.I mean people can't live without me, in case of emergency no one could be there to drive for them. To take money from the bank or any other responsibilities that needs my present.
I used to complain about this, but I know I have no reason to do so. My family needs my help, how could I reject it?! I'm so glad my sisters understand my situation. But until when I could keep myself believe that everything is okay? I mean, I need myself to be improved too. I'm too old to be dependent with my sisters help.
Being free is good, but I feel so limited to reach my goals. I really needed to get out of this situation and start reaching my goal all by myself. Fight against the fears and learn how to accept things.
11/17/10
2010 is not a good year for me
This year is been so tough for me. Everything that's happening is extremely bad. How I wish that next year would be extremely great for me. Please Lord, be with me all the time. Keep me a better person, give me wisdom, make me strong, give me strength, inspire me and give me courage to face all the challenge that comes into my life.
Lord please show me the light, enlighten my mind and make me a good person and responsible not just for myself but also for everyone around me. Help me reach my dream and keep me positive. Please Lord help me face my life confindently and with love.
I really need you at this point of my life, please Lord don't leave me. You are the only one who left to survive me, the one who will inspire me and make me go back to the person I used to be before. I want to be strong and responsible and full of dreams.
Lord please show me the light, enlighten my mind and make me a good person and responsible not just for myself but also for everyone around me. Help me reach my dream and keep me positive. Please Lord help me face my life confindently and with love.
I really need you at this point of my life, please Lord don't leave me. You are the only one who left to survive me, the one who will inspire me and make me go back to the person I used to be before. I want to be strong and responsible and full of dreams.
my 25 years in this world
It's been 25 years ago since I was born in this world. In my 25 years, I've learned so many things. I also learned how unfair life is, how tough living in this world. Life is very confusing, challenges comes one after another or sometimes it comes together. Life sucks and make you cry, sometimes you are weak and so down that you don't have any idea what to do. You start with the question: why is this happening to me? what am I gonna do? where am I gonna start? and how could I face this? to mention a few.
Life is exciting and fun as others say and I honestly believe this. It is easy to say it though, but the easier it is to say the harder it is to do. Life will be exciting and fun if you know how to handle your life. I didn't believe that all the people live that way though, for each of us feels the same way. Each of us has each own challenge in life and has each own word to call it.
Many times I fell on the ground as I walked to continue my life's journey in this world. So many times I gave up, school, work, family and friends. I even came to the point that I didn't know who I am, what is my purpose and what is my dream. It's been so hard for me to live in this world, I blame God, my family and those people around me. But I know deep inside me that there's no one to blame but myself. I almost gave up when I realized that my life was already ruined, I want to bring back the past to correct my mistakes but unfortunately past is past...I can't bring it back no matter what I do. All that left is to accept the past and face the future.
I don't want to do what I've did before, but I am such a coward to fix my life anymore. Call me anything that you want to call, I won't get mad coz I know it's really true. I am nothing but a damn a loser.
One day I asked God, why did you gave me a chance to live in this world where I don't deserved?
Well anyway, this blog shows how am I to deal with my life. And sad to say, my life is not as exciting and fun as yours. I struggling so much and I really find life so tough.
Life is exciting and fun as others say and I honestly believe this. It is easy to say it though, but the easier it is to say the harder it is to do. Life will be exciting and fun if you know how to handle your life. I didn't believe that all the people live that way though, for each of us feels the same way. Each of us has each own challenge in life and has each own word to call it.
Many times I fell on the ground as I walked to continue my life's journey in this world. So many times I gave up, school, work, family and friends. I even came to the point that I didn't know who I am, what is my purpose and what is my dream. It's been so hard for me to live in this world, I blame God, my family and those people around me. But I know deep inside me that there's no one to blame but myself. I almost gave up when I realized that my life was already ruined, I want to bring back the past to correct my mistakes but unfortunately past is past...I can't bring it back no matter what I do. All that left is to accept the past and face the future.
I don't want to do what I've did before, but I am such a coward to fix my life anymore. Call me anything that you want to call, I won't get mad coz I know it's really true. I am nothing but a damn a loser.
One day I asked God, why did you gave me a chance to live in this world where I don't deserved?
Well anyway, this blog shows how am I to deal with my life. And sad to say, my life is not as exciting and fun as yours. I struggling so much and I really find life so tough.
10/7/10
WE’RE ALWAYS TOGETHER IN OUR HEARTS
WE’RE ALWAYS TOGETHER IN OUR HEARTS
By: Arlene
You’re in love with me
but you’re scared that I won’t like you.
I’m in love with you
Believing you won’t ever feel the same way.
Until the day a friend told me,
how you talked so much about me
It makes me wanna cry, knowing you felt the same way.
From that day, I can’t stop thinking ‘bout you.
Why I feel this way now, now that you’re gone
Gone somewhere I couldn’t see
Maybe you’re not coming back anymore
Oh baby, tell me how I could live this way NOW.
You make me smile every time I think about you,
Everything you did before just to impress me
But baby, I’m so blind that I didn’t even see.
You're the only one who can make me happy
Now tell me how could I be happy,
when I know you're not gonna be mine anymore.
We’ve never been together since before
Or maybe still won’t be in the future
But baby, I know we’re always together in our hearts.
I will never ever forget about you
We may not see each other again
But one thing I want you to know
You’ll always be a part of my life
And no one could ever take you out of my heart.
*First Flame Never Dies*
By: Arlene
You’re in love with me
but you’re scared that I won’t like you.
I’m in love with you
Believing you won’t ever feel the same way.
Until the day a friend told me,
how you talked so much about me
It makes me wanna cry, knowing you felt the same way.
From that day, I can’t stop thinking ‘bout you.
Why I feel this way now, now that you’re gone
Gone somewhere I couldn’t see
Maybe you’re not coming back anymore
Oh baby, tell me how I could live this way NOW.
You make me smile every time I think about you,
Everything you did before just to impress me
But baby, I’m so blind that I didn’t even see.
You're the only one who can make me happy
Now tell me how could I be happy,
when I know you're not gonna be mine anymore.
We’ve never been together since before
Or maybe still won’t be in the future
But baby, I know we’re always together in our hearts.
I will never ever forget about you
We may not see each other again
But one thing I want you to know
You’ll always be a part of my life
And no one could ever take you out of my heart.
*First Flame Never Dies*
